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Monday, November 9th, 2009
9:36 am	Update. Watching Johnny play Heavenly Sword trips me out so hard. That game is so intense and the graphics are unbelievable. It opens some weird thought waves in my mind and makes me process some crazy things. Watching it is just so stimulating and tranquil- almost meditating.  Halloween was fantastic. My Conehead costume came together last minute and it came together very well if I do say so myself. A lot of people came up to me- you know, after they had had a few drinks, and were like "fuck yeah! Conehead!" It was cool shit. This really sexy guy dressed up as Kurt Cobain started flirting hardcore with me and we danced together. It was a lot of fun. Man I've been kicking myself in the ass for not giving him my number. But oh will. If our paths are meant to cross again, they shall.  I am officially moving out of my parents house and getting my own place. Probably somewhere in Bloomington but I wouldn't mind finding a place in uptown. Or even Richfield. I'm not sure if I'm ready to move back to Winona. It just doesn't feel right. But this means I will be taking the Semester off so I can get a second job to pay for rent.  Glasses & Hat party was awesome this weekend. Got closer to a lot of people and had an amazing time. Found out that Whitney is also looking for a place to live and we are talking about moving in together now. I wouldn't mind it: I don't know Whitney extremely well so it would be like getting a new roommate at college. I'm just not sure if I want a roommate or not in general. I'll have to think about it.  After waking up the morning after with a killer headache with everyone we went to DunBros (overrated) and then Melissa, Tommy, Drew and I went to Moir and explored the beautiful day. Mel took some awesome pictures. I miss having my camera so much :(  Current Mood: amused Current Music: "Intro" Andrew Bird (Comment on this)
Monday, October 26th, 2009
9:43 am	Drink up baby, stay up all night.  So I have a paper due tomorrow in Modern Political Thought that I need to get working on. The topic is pretty cool though. It's set up something like this: You live in North Dakota and it's the middle of winter. It's cold. Very cold. And snowing. You're driving along and you see a neighbor of yours on the side of the road and his car is dead. You don't really like the guy, but it's really fucking cold so you pick him up. As you're driving you're both listening to the radio, and the lottery number comes on. He checks his ticket, to realize that he just won the lottery. He is very excited and happy. After a while he asks you to pull over so he can take a piss on the side of the road. While he is outside, you grab your gun out of the glove compartment. Shoot him. Take his lottery ticket and trade it out for yours. You leave him buried in the snow where he won't be found for months. You go home and take apart your gone so its nothing but scraps of metal and you discard of it. Weeks later, you are on a cruise with lots of hot models.  The point of the essay is this: You understand that murder and theft is wrong. Still, you view the situation entirely as a benefit for you. My job is to convince you, without the use of God or the Bible or the Ten Commandments, that what you did was wrong. I'm suppose to take a look at Hume, other political philosophers that may apply, and my own thoughts for the response. Excited for this. It's going to be interesting. Going to be up late working on it. Trying to this of what other philosophers might apply... Saturday was the six year anniversary of Elliott Smith's suicide.  Steven Paul "Elliott" Smith (August 6, 1969 - October 21, 2003) Current Mood: blah Current Music: "Between Bars" Elliot Smith (Comment on this)
Saturday, October 17th, 2009
1:01 am	Don't laugh...actually yea it's okay laugh.  [x] been drunk.  [x] smoked pot. [x] kissed a member of the opposite sex.  [x] kissed a member of the same sex. [x] rode in a taxi. [x] been dumped.  [ ] shoplifted. [ ] been fired. [ ] been in a fist fight.  [x] had sex. [ ] had a threesome [x] snuck out of your parent's house. [ ] been arrested. [x] made out with a stranger. [ ] stole something from your job.  [ ] celebrated new years in times square. [ ] went on a blind date. [x] lied to a friend. [x] had a crush on a teacher. [ ] celebrated mardi-gras in new orleans. [x] been to europe.  [x] skipped school.  [ ] thrown up from drinking. [ ] lost your sibling. [x] played 'clue'.  [x] had a sleepover party.  [x] went ice skating. [ ] cheated on a bf/gf. [x] been cheated on.  [ ] driven illegally. Do you... [ ] have a bf. [ ] have a gf.  [ ] have a crush.  [ ] feel loved.  [x] feel lonely. [ ] feel happy.  [ ] hate yourself.  [ ] think you're attractive.  [ ] have a dog. [x] have your own room.  [x] listen to rap.  [x] listen to rock. [ ] listen to soul. [x] listen to techno.  [x] listen to reggae./ska [x] paint your nails.  [x] have more than 1 best friend.  [ ] get good grades.  [x] play an instrument.  [ ] have slippers.  [ ] wear boxers.  [x] wear underwear in general  [x] wear thongs.  [x] wear black eyeliner. [x] like the color blue.  [ ] like the color yellow. [ ] cyber. [x] like to read.  [x] like to write. [ ] have long hair. (For my gender) [x] have short hair. (Comparitively) [x] have a cell phone.  [x] have a laptop.  [ ] have a pager. Are you... [ ] ugly. [ ] pretty. [x] bored. [x] happy.  [x] bilingual.  [x] white. [ ] black. [ ] mexican.  [ ] asian.  [ ] short. [ ] tall. [ ] grounded. [x] sick.  [ ] a virgin.  [x] lazy.  [x] single. [ ] taken.  [x] looking. [ ] not looking. [x] talking to someone. [x] IMing someone. [x] scared to die. [x] tired.  [x] sleepy.  [ ] annoyed. [ ] hungry. [x] thirsty.  [ ] on the phone. [ ] in your room.  [x] drinking something. [ ] eating something. [x] in your pjs. [x] ticklish.  [ ] listening to music.  [ ] homophobic.  [ ] racist.    Current Mood: sick (Comment on this)
Monday, October 12th, 2009
11:58 pm	BRITTNY! I LOVE BRITTNY SHE IS MY FAVORITE PERSON IN WINONA EVER. <3 <3 <3  (Comment on this)
Sunday, October 11th, 2009
11:32 pm	Update.  So on impulse I decided to try listening to Anthony's radio show out at Concordia. He told me about it a long time ago but I just didn't bother. Of course it plays fantastic music. Some of my favorite classics. Hendrix, The Cars, Billy Idol,etc. It's weird to hear his voice over the radio and the music he use to share with me. Really weird, actually. But it's a good station. I definitely recommend it. http://streaming.cord.edu/kord.sdp I had a very pleasant weekend. Mom has been out of town so I think my blood pressure has dropped a considerable amount.  Valynne, where are you? :(  Current Mood: restless Current Music: "All Along the Watchtower" Jimi Hendrix (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, October 10th, 2009
6:00 pm	1/2'' earrings  Due to some financial difficulties, I have decided to sell some of my smaller jewelry finally.  I bought these about a year ago and I've only worn them twice. They are 1/2'' spirals and I believe they are made out of some type of ram's horn.  They were originally $70+ tax. I'm selling them for $50. I'm also putting an add on facebook, so it's first come first serve. If anyone is interested email me at Mrubenstein09@yahoo.com. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, October 6th, 2009
9:49 pm	Wood Nymphs. Being on the verge of an anxiety attack from studying for this Bio exam and then drawing to relax has lead to these recent creations.   And now I feel better. www.flickr.com/photos/madisonelyse/ Current Mood: calm Current Music: "Minerva" Ani Difranco (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, October 2nd, 2009
9:02 am	Update.  Last night I went on a date with a guy from my painting class. His name is Tim and he's pretty cute. And in the Navy. A bit older than me, but a really nice guy. I've always wanted to date a painter :) We talk about....painting stuff. But yeah we went to CPK at Southdale, then we decided to see District 9 since neither of us had seen it. Awesome movie. The graphics were fantastic. But yeah....dating again...not sure how I feel about it. I'm not very interested in being in a relationship right now. I kind of just want to have a good time but...I'll give this guy a chance. He wants to take me out again this weekend. There was talk of him taking me to that REALLY REALLY nice restaurant at the Walker sometime. Not Wolfgang Puck. The other one. That would be cool as hell.  I'm not doing very well on the tests in my Biology class. My teacher says that this next exam will determine wether we will be dropped from her class or not. Pretty much that if we fail we can't get our Bachelors? I don't really get it. But I'm scared. Have a lot of studying to do this weekend. Really worried.  My phone broke. I have a new one, but now all my photos and ringtones are GONE. :(    Current Mood: tired Current Music: "Blowout" Radiohead w/ The Posies (Comment on this)
Wednesday, September 23rd, 2009
10:10 am	'Noners n' stuffs. This week is going pretty well. Things have been stressful with my parents but they are going better since our last big conversation. I still want to move out as soon as possible. Got to save a ton of money right now, though. So I put in my two weeks notice at Express. I got hired full time by the Jefferson Speech team to be a coach!!! I'm so freaking excited. I know it's going to be a lot of work and will eventually be pretty stressful. But still. Super excited for that. Fucking cool as hell. I'm heading to Winona Friday after class- staying there Friday and Saturday night at Megan, Ryan & Eli's. Super excited. Saturday is the Winona Zombie crawl which is going to be fucking sweet as hell. I still need to get some make-up and a costume together, though. Crawling from bar to bar Saturday night. Hell yeah.  I'm watching Gadhafi address the United Nations right now. Seriously, wtf.  Current Mood: excited Current Music: "Dance of the Devil" Immortal Technique (Comment on this)
Wednesday, September 16th, 2009
9:33 am	...really?  sarahridinger RT @MindOfMoif BLACK KANYE WEST CAN PUBLICLY DISS A WHITE COUNTRY STAR, THEN WHITE JOE WILSON CAN PUBLICLY DISS AN INTERRACIAL PRESIDENT. (Comment on this)
Wednesday, June 24th, 2009
11:53 pm	Update. [Edited]. My hunt for schools continue. I am extremely impressed with MCAD. Still don't know if I can afford it, though. Checked out the St. Paul College of Visual Arts. Not so impressed. Still looking at some other places. Still have no idea where I will be living in two months.  My mom is driving me insane. After a week long fight about her thinking I took my pillows out of the house and did something to them and lied to her about them, and her also thinking that Valynne took them, I showed her these "missing pillows" and got an apology. She then said it was still my fault, though. It was my fault she thought I was lying and that she can't believe anything that comes out of my mouth. I lied to her about one thing a couple weeks ago. And now she thinks I'm a sack of shit. I asked her why she thinks I would possibly lie to her? And her response was "because you like lying to me!" I told her to have a nice sit and to think about it for a while. She didn't.  My mom threw away thousands of dollars on family counseling that she never listened to.  Amber was in town last night and she crashed at my place. It was awesome to see her and to have her finally meet my parents. And they love her. I was sad to hear that Ari was back on the booze again. Even after her best friend went into rehab. I love that firl so much I wish there was something I could do... There was one thing I asked of Lucas when we broke up, and that was to just hear from him now and again to know he is alive. He said he would, but I think I knew that I would never hear from him. A good friend of mine decided to walk out of my life four months ago and I haven't heard a word from him. It's such a big "fuck you" to our relationship. It would be over this if I heard from the fucker at least once. What could I have done that would make it so fucking easy to never speak to me again?  You ruined "Third Eye" for me.  For my birthday I decided to take a trip to Winona. It had been about a month since I'd left and I missed it there terribly. Part of me was hoping that once I had returned, I wouldn't feel the same love for it anymore- making it easier to leave. Not the case. Amber picked me up from the train station on Monday the 8th, and we went to that perfectly flawed light yellow house on 4th street with the garden in front I helped her plant. I opened the door  expecting Pabst to come running from the kitchen, wagging his tail. I was sad to find out he was in South Dakota with Mitch. I did ever so gently crawl into bed with Ari and woke her up. I was thrilled to find out a few days before hand that she had stopped drinking after she was threatened to be kicked out of the house. Amber and I hung around, and Ryan came over that night. Our mild flirtation from the last time I had saw him was still present. Amber figured it out and after watching several episodes of Family Guy she went to bed. Ryan didn't wait long to make his move. Unfortunately, Ari walked in on us. It was funny. I guess she had just had a drink or two (which is amazing, considering), but she was drunk enough to think that Ryan was Mitch, and was about to kick my ass. Realizing her mistake we had a short lol feast, and or course Ryan left shortly after that. Crawled in bed with Amber, told her what happened and we had quite the giggle. The next couple days involved me hanging with Tym, Amber and I seeing Katie Mae, hanging with Ryan, Eli and Megan (nothing happened with Ryan after the first night despite invitation). We went grocery shopping, I cooked dinner, and we had fun. Wednesday Ari and Amber left for Souix Falls to go see Mitch. I was originally going to come with but I had plans with other people. I bike around town a lot. I know those roads better than Minneapolis. I went on a kind of date? This guy named Brain I met at a bar in Winona. He is nice and he is dorky. *Shrugs*. We talk now and then. After having a brief but awesome hang with Izzy. I finally met the infamous Aaron. Him, Katie Mae and I hung out a lot the last couple days. We made awesome vegetarian lasagna from scratch. I ended up missing my train Thursday and stayed an extra night at Katie Mae's with Aaron. It was a good trip. A well needed trip. And on Friday, with my heart in my throat, I watched from inside the train as the sun set across Winona, making a stellar sight on the water with two rainbows crossing over.  One thing I realized while taking that long walk in the rain from Katie Mae's to the train station, is that things need to change. It’s time to move forward and never look back. Whatever I have been doing, with the choices I have made and the attitude I have, whatever it is, It’s not working. I can’t tell if I’m in desperate need of an attitude adjustment or that if I’m just being worn down. Why didn't I want to come home?It could be that it’s my first home away from home. A place that I can call home. A place of substance where I can make choices and decide where to go. I call the shots. But that can’t be the only reason why I was happy there. Maybe that magical feeling I experienced when I first went to Winona is real. Maybe it’s just a fit. Simple as that. Maybe I have always been right. I must say though, I have never doubted myself more in my life. Not for a long time at least. Could it be that my parents finally wore me down? I know what I want, but if there is something I have learned the past few years, is that I really can’t trust myself. And that is terrifying. If I can’t trust myself, how can I trust anyone else? I am already filled with misanthropy.What I’m saying is that I need a change. But I know nothing is going to change. Not right now at least. I’ve been told that I am wrong so many times, that it’s starting to get under my skin. It’s parking in my head for free. I can’t trust myself. I’m tired of being questioned. I’m tired of being judged. I’m tired of the inquiries and the invasions. Maybe some people are right. Maybe I am just over dramatic. Maybe I am wired all wrong. I have no fucking clue what’s happening. All I know is that I’m not happy. That’s the only thing I can go off of. And with that bit of information, the solution that makes the most sense is change. I have never been happy in this place. I was only happy if I was with someone that made me happy. I’ve never been happy on my own. I have not been able to love myself here. Not until I left this place. And when I say this to my parents, they just mock me. My mom thinks I’m sick. My dad thinks I’m misguided, and they both don’t respect me.   Current Mood: Hurt Current Music: "The Past Is A Grotesque Animal" Of Montreal (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, March 13th, 2009
1:35 pm	Update. The last few months have been exhausting and trying. Despite intense efforts, Lucas and I had to end things. The distance and some really unfortunate tragedies that occurred in his life (which led to him making some poor decisions) caused things to become too complicated. We both agreed it wasn’t working, despite our feelings for each other. Despite the heartbreak I am doing fine, but I miss him so much. We haven’t spoken since and I am almost sure I will never see him again.  It makes it even harder that we were such good friends before all of this. I’m okay, but it hurts like hell.   I tried to talk to Anthony the other night about everything that happened. It wasn’t easy for me to say what I needed to say, and it was difficult to bring it up. He didn’t care to listen to any of it.   My dreams have become vivid, startling, and disturbingly realistic. I am having trouble deciphering between dreams and things that might have actually happened the day before.   My only source of solace at this point is when I’m working on my projects in the studio at Wabasha. It’s very therapeutic. Especially working on my 3D projects. Perhaps I have found a new favorite medium to work in? I never thought I would like this class. Apparently I got the highest grade in the class on my last project: http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=2009720&id=1271910477   Speaking of which, my new favorite artist: Louis Bourgeois. I may like her more than Hundertwasser. She is absolutely fascinating. And in her nineties, I believe. Her work is very dark and erotic and absolutely amazing. Abstract Expressionism = my favorite style of art. If I ever would want to be compared to an artist, it would definitely be her.   I already had my spring break, but I will be in Bloomington March 20th-March 22nd (leaving early morning) for a haircut. I won’t have a lot of free time, but I would like to see some people. Let me know if you are free.  Current Mood: disconnected Current Music: "Baby I Love Your Way" Peter Frampton (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, January 5th, 2009
8:57 am	The water is rising, it's comg up everywhere. Because of excessive partying and undesirable situations this past week or so, I have decided to spend these final days of break to heal, relax, rejuvenate, and prepare myself for the new semester. Last semester did not go well, and I do not want to go through that all over again. Despite current events, I need to be prepared. I can't fuck this up again. I have to go talk to the new boss at Jamba this week to see if I can still get my old job back this summer. Ugh. Jamba Juice. I'm looking into applying at Good Earth to work as a seating hostess or in that bakery part or something. My sister is a waitress there. That would be fun. I still haven’t touched my violin since I’ve been back. And I’m not sure if I will. I want to…I just don’t have the drive. I really should start playing music again. It’s good for me. If you want to plan some hangouts before I go back the 11th, contact me. I are making plans.   new years eve we dropped mushrooms and danced around the house making music with everything that we found incantation replaced resolution and we vowed to allow each perfection that we could be and the goddess sent word that this would be a red letter year they didn't mention how much shit was gonna change around here it's just as well we weren't swollen with unfocused dread we had visions of sugarplums dancing in our heads dancing in our heads first you go under and then you coming up gives you bends and when you break the surface and all you see is your friends so you grab your purple crayon and flush out the picture behind and finally the whole world is made of one unbroken line one unbroken line and when you wake up sick as a dog with dull eyes and really bad hair standing under a lit sign with the words on air and the water is rising it's coming in everywhere just remember you are there you're always, always there. and representing the white race a man with a monkey for a face is flying over in his helicopter whistling dixie and playing dumb in a town that might put a gun to your throat or rip the roof right off your place there's a mold crawling up the walls and falling asleep in your lungs and you and i both know how to drink some we will always have work in this town besides the police are stationed at the bridge and they're preventing passage to higher ground so let's pull up some barstools and get ourselves a ringside seat for one unnerving moment they're gonna show the truth on TV Current Mood: cynical Current Music: "Red Letter Year [Live]" Ani Difranco (Comment on this)
Friday, November 7th, 2008
5:02 pm	And I swear I don't have a gun. I went in for my drawing review today, and it didn't go well. She said that I had talent and good observation and well developed detail. But overall, that my work was dull. That it "didn't sparkle". I'm starting to become terrified of the idea that I just might never be good enough.  Current Mood: disappointed Current Music: "Come As You Are" Nirvana (Comment on this)
Thursday, October 30th, 2008
4:52 am	This just crosses the line. First, Palin. Now, Joe the Plumber is campaigning for McCain.  Too much. It's just too much. Current Music: WE ARE ALL GOING TO DIE. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, October 21st, 2008
4:42 am	Strangest Thing. A new blog for just brief thoughts and writings. Not ranting.   http://madisonstrangestthing.blogspot.com/ (Comment on this)
Friday, October 17th, 2008
11:38 am	Aurora and Phillip: Plastic Crown and Phony Cape Fall break was very good. I hadn't been out of Winona since I moved in here and it was great to see Lucas :) He also came back with me for a few days. Sounds like he might be coming down for Halloween as well. All of my gal friends here have an inside joke about Disney Princesses, and I am Sleeping Beauty (since I tend to sleep all day). So, they said Lucas could join us, but only as Prince Phillip. We'll see what he thinks about that one.  I started to fall behind again on some school work this week but I think I will be able to make it up just fine. I'm going into the drawing studio today to catch up. My parents are coming today. I haven't seen them since I left. This will be interesting.  You know those "Say Ten Things to Ten Anonymous People" things? Ever actually shown one of those people what you wrote to them? It's an experience.  Current Mood: hungry Current Music: "Innocence" Bjork (Comment on this)
Wednesday, October 1st, 2008
2:22 pm	All I really want is intellectual intercourse. Sleep is coming much easier- harder to stay awake, even. I've probably been unable to stay up passed midnight all week. Unfortunately, since I'm sleeping more, I'm doing homework less. I'm very behind in my drawing class. And I didn't go yesterday. This isn't good.  My English class absolutely drives me crazy. Ms. Hayes is a nice woman in her, oh, maybe thirties. I want to like her. I do. Unfortunately I can't ignore the fact that somehow I have ended up in freshmen english once again. I tried not to be too worried when we were handed out books on punctuation. But when we were spending an hour during class on the use of a comma I knew it could only get worse. An hour on commas. Another day, an hour and the semi colon. Then an hour on what a sentence fragment is. Then how to avoid writing run on sentences. Yesterday, we spent an hour learning how to write a topic sentence. And for each of these things, we are given at least one worksheet. "Locate the missing/incorrect ______ and fix it." We don't even have to turn any of these in. She just doesn't know what to fill up her two hour class with.  The second hour of class is spent on the book we are reading. Now, I would be okay with this if it actually led to some sort of philosophical or in depth discussion. But literally, literally, it's more like, "Why is this character angry?" "What happen right after he walked out of the house?" " What is the name of the character he meets in chapter one?" This drives me up the wall. I think my favorite was the day when she wanted to put us into groups, because she felt like we weren't getting to know our class mates well enough. Not only is this dumb, but its useless when she asks Madison, Jeff, Bob, and Marge to go into groups, when we don't even know the person's name sitting next to us. This is college. It's not her responsibility to create our social lives. We kind of have to take that into our own hands at this point. And these groups were for group discussions. She gave us a sheet of discussion topics, and we had to go through each one of them in our groups. And then write our very own discussion question, which we never even used. I can't believe my parents pay for this. This is the most productive thing I did in english yesterday. And this is how I felt;  Goal of the Week: Finish all my homework on time. Progress: Failure. Days I have gone without smoking: 0  Days until I head up North: 8 Current Mood: aggravated Current Music: "Break Free" The Noisettes (Comment on this)
Friday, September 26th, 2008
5:23 am	Bitching and Moaning.  I am quite honestly at a loss here. When did I become such a god awful person to my parents? I just talk horribly to them. I don't know if I have some immature bitterness or if I finally snapped or what. According to them I have turned into a complete monster. When did this happen? When did I completely stop respecting them? Whenever I talk to them I always feel angry and disgusted and I don't know why. I understand there have been some major control issues but it still doesn't justify my actions. On the other hand, my parents truly, honest to god believe that I got my tongue pierce solely for the purpose to hurt them. And I guess what set off my mother's tirade yesterday is when I called to tell her that I was going up North to visit Lucas. She thought I was asking her permission, and I said, no. I'm asking for you to give me access to my own savings so I could buy a bus ticket. I'm not asking your permission to go. She then went on this rant that all the kids she knew would NEVER talk to her parents the way I do or do something they wouldn't agree with, especially when they are paying for my college. She said that my dad is upset with me and doesn't really want to talk. She says that "it's really hard to see the sweet girl that I know in you." Apparently, I've turned into a monster. The thing is, I don't feel bad. I can't fake apologize for the way I act anymore. I just...don't feel bad. But I want to, so badly. I want to find some justifiable reason for the way that I'm acting. I want to be wrong. I don't want to think that it will always be like this. I'm just so tired of the social workers and the sessions and the complete ignorance on their part. I've told them thousands of times why I do what I do. They refuse to retain the information. I can't tell them one more god damn time. I can't do it anymore. I'm tired of it. I'm at a bit of a loss, here. I want to be able to go home next month and have my parents happy to see me. And I want to be happy to see them. As of right now the thought of going home just puts a fowl taste in my mouth. I want to be wrong. I want to find what's wrong with me and fix it. It's much better than knowing that it is always going to be this way. I'd rather be something wrong with me then with them.  Goal of the Week: Attend every class. Progress: Successful. Days I have gone without smoking: Thirteen. Nights in a row I've had a guilty dream about Anthony: Six.  Current Mood: pensive Current Music: "Flume" Bon Iver (Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 23rd, 2008
8:53 am	Can't you find a clue when your eyes are all painted Sinatra blue I now have created myself a weekly schedule that says my classes, when I'm watching House and Supernatural, and exactly what I will be doing homework on at what time. My orientation professor/ the dean of admissions said that technically, for each hour of class = two hours of studying. I do hope this is a myth. Regardless, my schedule strictly follows that theory. I'm interested in seeing wether or not I will actually follow it.  Valynne is coming to stay with me this weekend - I are super excited. Sounds like Laura Schofield will be dropping in too as she will be visiting another friend. I have missed both of them a shit ton.  Quitting smoking is proving successful. Let's see if I can keep this up. This friday marks four weeks that I have my tongue pierced. According to my piercer I'm officially allowed to give oral sex by that time. Oh, so very exciting. My good friend MJ decided to make this an event on facebook. Thanks, MJ.  The last two nights I have gone to sleep between 12-1am, which is remarkable. Problem is is that I wake up at some ridiculous hour, like seven am with no hopes in falling back to sleep. I think it's because if I wake up, I can't stop thinking about breakfast. I love breakfast here. Hoorah three meals a day! I'm still a firm believer in the idea of people sending me mail.  Po Box 5838 #SH 0512 Winona, MN 55987 Oh yeah, and in case I haven't already informed you, you can set the language on facebook to English (pirate). I do believe it's the greatest thing facebook has ever done.  Goal of the Week: Attend every class. Progress: Successful.  Days I have gone without smoking: Eleven Nights in a row I've had a guilty dream about Anthony: Four Current Mood: sleepy Current Music: "The Wolves (Act I & II)" Bon Iver (Comment on this)